Neulasta shot again at 7. Time for Satan's bar crawl again. I'll be drinking the juice for 24 hours and finally hit the floor for the hellish spins around 6pm tomorrow night.
I'll try to watch a better Lifetime movie too.
I'll be so happy when this AC train stops.
My body is kind of expecting stuff now. The nauseousness is deeper and more intense now. I managed an hour at shoprite to get some supplies for the journey - which was rough. But it felt nice to get dressed, put some makeup on and get out one last time into the human world this week. Azalea helped out. She holds onto my coupons as i shop... I am a coupon nut. I have a binder and everything. I actually skipped buying the sunday paper and clipping coupons for the first week in over a year this past sunday and it killed me! lol.
paid 58.00 , saved 41.00. go me. A couponing trip is few and far between these days, so welcome to my domestic DisneyWorld.
And now the pulling starts. The soul becoming detached from the soul container. it's like getting gum out of hair. Or mozzarella cheese out of lasagna. I feel like I'm coming more "apart" when I feel this crappy. I am thankful for this. I REFUSE to allow ANY of this to affect my spirit. And it can't because of the same physical property ghosts have that makes them walk through walls. Cancer does not exist in the spirit world. Organs are just car parts.
So there.
You will not get me cancer.
It sounds really odd, but I've usually not been a fan of pieces taken off of me that I can't see later.
I've gotten to keep most every tooth I have had extracted in my adult years, and I saw my babies and their placentas come out, and I watched fluid in my hand getting drained out along with pints and pints of blood over the years. It's fascinating to me to see my own guts.
I'm going to ask my surgeons to save my tumors for me to see later. I'm that weirdo. I wonder if they'll think the same. Or if they get lots of people asking that too. I don't want to keep them , just see them. MRI's just don't cut it. haha - i just made a pun.
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My next post will probably be tomorrow during a good window~ thanks for all your support , people and all the kind words - they are my fighting tools and medicine as well.
I love you all.....
xo
