Emerging from the fog once again.
I lost track of time, I'd wake up from a nap and think it was 9pm, when it was only 3.
The bone pain is still around.
I'll get a stab in the jaw and be like- "oh hell, not teeth too"- and realize- Hey- my jaw is a bone too. You don't realize how many bones are in your body until they all hurt. Taking their turns in stabbing you.
Knees, ribs, the middle of the chest, shins, fingers, arms..... my back. ugh.
Next Neulasta shot I'm going to try something new and juice like crazy with the greens and carrots as soon as the chemo needle is taken out, usual chiropractor visit and see what happens. I would love to see what I can do to counteract that screwed up rollercoaster drug experience if I can.
Mind over matter. ;)
Mom took the kids again last night- I got to spend some time with them for a little bit before she picked them back up at 7. Mark worked last night so I wouldn't have had any help getting them fed and ready for bed with the way I was feeling. Thanks mommy :)I passed out dead tired about 8:30 and slept well until about 7.
This morning, I MADE myself get out of bed, take a shower, put some makeup on and go to Shoprite for a few things. I have been craving kale like crazy- and it hasn't been at my local supermarket for weeks. Which means it's a 15 minute drive or more to get it now.
I needed stuff- Mark had to leave for a double day of gigging at 10:30 so it had to be done. Got some Metallica's Ride the Lightning on the ipod (good ass kicking music to drive to) - headed out on the highway solo.
Easy Rider.... hardly. lol.
I felt like crap, but it felt good to be out for the most part.
I also discovered the my Shoprite now has every flavor of GTS Kombucha tea. I love the multi-greens because it tastes like french fries to me. and I miss french fries.
Kombucha's some good stuff- I used to brew it at home- but pregnancy made me stop the cycle since it upset my stomach a lot- but it's great for keeping the good bacteria in your belly, B vitamins and just a good shot of good stuff. It has shown to help with breast cancer patients as well- but in this day in age- anything is subjective. I have faith in it though. The Chinese know their herbs and teas and fungus.
It was kinda of bizarre in the supermarket- I just wore a headscarf but I knew people could tell. Folks gave me that "I know what you have" smile, and happily moved out of my way if I needed to get by. It's strangely like when I was 9 months pregnant at the same store.
it's already 11AM and it feels like a day just went by. Exhausted right now. I need to sleep and not. push. anything.
I love Beth :)
Mark comes home from all his music at 6, so we can have our kids back and enjoy a nice quiet sunday of final rest before the work week starts back up again....
