Greetings from the Jersey Shore. Currently, we are under a very serious watch for an upcoming storm system named Sandy that is apparently projected to do some damage. I live about 3 miles from the mighty Atlantic in Point Pleasant- it's literally a right turn and then a left turn to get to the ocean from my house. There is a crazy still feeling outside tonight- soooooo quiet- not a leaf rustling anywhere. It's strangely warm and there's a fuzz to the atmosphere. The big one is coming, I think. Our home was built in the 1960s and very much strong and secure for any kind of coastal storm at least. But they're predicting that this one will be historic. My thoughts and love and protection vibes to all you guys out here on the coast with us and everywhere in the path!!!
We have a few trees that I am a little worried about, hopefully they will rock out as they have all this time.
I like a good storm and the best is being able to go out to see the ocean before and after.
Still- nature is to be respected and we will take all the necessary precautions.
Thank you all for the kind words on yesterday's post~ I had that letter in the making for a while- just had to get farther away from the diagnosis and do the treatments and get out of that hole first.
There's a contrast and similarity at the same time from then until now. I'm almost 100 posts here, 8K+ hits- You all have followed the drugs, the haircut, the bad days, my dark side, my groovy side and the part of me that I discovered through these writings.
And that part of me's growth is documented as the tumors end their lives. Granted, it spread it's ugly word all around me forever more- but every year I go without any bad news will be a year lived fully. The MO from here on out.
Don't wait.
Dye your hair blue if you want.
Hug your kids every single freaking minute you can.
Hug your husband every single morning and night.
Tell your mom how awesome she is.
Give thanks for their love and make it a point to see all 5 siblings at least once a year.
Go west.
Pay no mind to that ghost that will forever haunt a house.
Finally FINALLY learn how to play that theremin.
Yup.
It's the core of what I have to be from November 10th on- a shift in the soul's tectonic plates. The innocent piece of solid island Pangea has fragmented.
Make the best of it.
There isn't anything that is keeping me from doing this- this is just affirmation.
I spent some time in some of the deepest chemical and mental trenches of my life ever ever. Places I don't ever want to see again.
Wherever this has led me to this point in life RIGHT NOW- it has spurned such a fire of fight in me for the truth- I hear of cannabis oils that eradicate some tumors. I hurt for the people who have to deal with this with no income to pay for living, or medical expenses- or lack the support of childcare, or a family to help them. I get pissed at profiteers from a disease. I want to see the cause of this found. And I want to see a revolution of uprising that will help get rid of this epidemic once and for all. I want to help all the people who can't do this on their own.
Oh golly I am furious, in a revolutionary way. I want to do so much, but I need to focus on healing right now first.
but still--- a revolution is needed. a hurricane of good.
......I am inspired.
love.
xo
b
