Taxol #1

DAY63

Success!
I made it through the infusion a-ok- just a stingy IV hole in my arm. But this time I took an entire Ativan becasue I was freaking out so much. I just don't like chemo.
I know it's healing me, but it harms too and it's brutal and all I do to keep the yuck at bay is the best I can do. But It's helping. It's my boxing gloves.
We got to Virtua/Fox Chase early thanks to no bathroom stops from all this hydration and a good selection of drivers on Route 70- I didn't have to pass one person! yay!

Up 4 lbs, more perfect blood count.
I don't think this tumor shrank any more either. It feels much bigger than the oncologist says. The lump under my arm has not changed at all- but sometimes I'll notice it'll "pop out" of its place to where it's visible through my skin and feeling it is gross.
I hope to hell the surgery takes all of this out. It'll be a week to find out just the whole picture of the tumor's size, how many lymph nodes are infected- it's a hot mess down there. And I'm not happy with it in my home.

I had chemo in a big hospital bed so they can keep an eye on me. The Benadryl + Ativan made for a really loopy me. I could barely speak clearly, although I tried to. I tried. lol.
They also stuck me with a fun drug called Dexamethasone. I remember my dad having this- its a mega steroid that apparently keeps you up for all hours and then a 14 hour sleep crash. eek. I stay up anyway. I wonder if it'll work in reverse then.
No more red pee, no more AC- this is the new drug. I was told nail hardener nail polish would help keep my nails strong. Things like typing (uh oh- shoudl I go to video blogs if my fingernails start lifting?) and using feet and fingers roughly could cause nail loss. Yes- I heard right- I now have a medical excuse to buy more nail polish. WOOOHOOO!

I came home loaded up on drugs and antihistamine- and promptly passed out in bed exhausted.
I'll have the AC still running through my system for the next 4 weeks.
My bald head sweat all over the pillow and I found falling alseep was weird. Probably the drugs.
I couldn't leave the waking world- just couldn't climb the wall to visit Lily White's Party. But i did eventually fall asleep. I'm up now, feeling ok - just a little achy and feeling like a dried up sponge.
Bombing my insides with water.
My appetite is ...eh...I was really hungry after chemo despite eating a tomato sandwich, big bowl of broccoli and wheat crackers. Gourmet class right there.

Not hungry now- I want to sleep, and I don't want to to sleep- this stupid tumor is achy right now from getting its ass kicked and I'm thirsty. Kids are at grandma's again.

Yankees play Seattle tonight at 10. ugh. I have a 9 am appointment with Doctor Patel tomorrow and this game is getting in the way. Doesn't help that Mark is coming home around 3am tonight either.
Yanks just acquired Ichiro Suzuki from Seattle- and he dances at bat.
 Mark & I call him lord of the dance.

It's gonna be one tired haul to the boob doctor.
Tomorrow, we figure out the new girls. So excited actually. I keep wondering how. lol.
Mark's excited too. Love that man. lol.

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Dance On, Ichiro.
The Highlander ...with a bat.

oh and PS! - I am joining Tatum's FUNK CANCER Team in the Making Strides for Breast Cancer walk in October!
If you'd like be one of my donors, click here. I would love it if you could help raise money for the ACS, and amazing organization that helps individual cancer patients above and beyond the call of duty.
Thank you :)