It's really nice to not have to worry about being in a LabCorp waiting room today.
Slowly coming out of the last chemo fog- it's been kinda crappy this week- less hot flashes- but oh boy the bone pain and neuropathy have been terrible.
Legs hurt so bad by 9PM I have to lie down in bed- hobbling everywhere.
and my energy is zilch.
Just tired all the time.
Having an issue with my hands- not being able to feel them 100% is weird.
And I'm dropping stuff.
holding a pen is a little difficult too.
I got through an especially tough work week where by 10AM I was on the road to Shitsville. ugh.
It is now the autumn season- time for punkins and cider and Halloween- summer just blew right past me. Faster than I would have imagined. It seems as it was just yesterday I had no air conditioning and had just started chemo. Now it's chilly, and I'm finding solace in tall boots.
Boots in general.
It's wearing them that just makes you feel like you got the power to kick anything's ass. And boots are always fabulous.
I haven't been able to shop for anything to match the boots though because I won't know my clothing size after the belly and boob surgery- it's kind of hard to figure out what will fit. I wing it for now.
It's a little odd having a next week without chemo. I got so used to the anticipating Monday drive, the routine, the copays- I feel like I got laid off from a job. lol.
I'll take it though. Even though it has taken such a toll on my head and body.
Glad to be done- glad it's over and I don't ever want that shit going through my veins ever again.
Monday I meet Dr. D'Ambrosio, my radiation oncologist.
Close to home in Toms River- he's the last stop of this crazy train of doctors and treatment and cancer for now.
I feel like I'm at the end and beginning all at the same time. Very overwhelming some times, I am constantly amazed at the community around me, and all that this has created. I am gratefully very tired. lol.
It's not without the creeping feelings and a racing mind of course, but I'm getting by and having the best time with my husband and kids as much as I can in these last few weeks of the most normalcy I'll see for a while...
On this chilly Saturday, I hope we can empty out the summer garden containers and treat the dirt and soil with some fresh compost and get some tulip bulbs planted today. The kids could use to get some brisk Jersey fall air in their blood and have some fun.
You are an elusive one, Saturday energy........................................................................................
(and go yankees!!! hooray!)
